13 Months Old

I’ve decided (well, I decided a while ago) that now you’re one I was going to cut these diary blogs down to monthly updates. One of the main reasons being that now you’re older and more mobile I don’t have much time to write them and they were becoming increasingly late in publishing (as is the case with this one, ironically).

This month started with a bang, you celebrated your first birthday my darling, beautiful, special little boy…. Happy Birthday. We threw a little birthday party for you where you were joined by Coral, Samuel and Mila for a play date/birthday tea.

On the 26th we went to Lyme for a few nights and stayed with Auntie. It was so nice to be spoiled for a while and they both dote on you so much. You discovered paintbrushes and stairs which kept you busy for what seemed like hours!!!


We spent some lovely time together and even took you to Exeter shopping for the first time (there’ll be lots more of these expeditions in the future) where you met Monty the Penguin and were centre of attention at Carluccio’s at lunchtime.


On the 7th we went to your first birthday party for Tommy’s birthday at Stratton. You had a lovely time on the slide and playing with the giant Lego.


On the 8th we went on our very first holiday as a family. We went to Longleat Centre Parcs Winter Wonderland where we had an amazing time (despite colds). We cycled, with you in a trailer which, after an initial protest, you absolutely loved. Daddy and you shouted at each other the whole time making everyone we passed chuckle. We saw reindeer (yes, real ones), squirrels, rabbits, a Harris Hawk and a giant cuddly teddy bear. We stayed in a woodland lodge where you had your very own room and you handled it quite well. I, on the other hand…

We did a lot of swimming and bought you an inflatable training seat which you loved, took you round a whirlpool and down lots of slides, you loved it. You loved being able to crawl the huge expanse of badminton courts, saw a real life reindeer and some singing ones which totally mesmerised you and you were totally taken by all the lights everywhere, it was truly magical and something I can see us repeating every year.


On the way home we stopped to buy a Christmas tree, now I’ve pretty much always had a real one, but with you being mobile and shoving everything in your mouth you find on the floor, we decided (against my better judgement) to get a fake one so bought a monster. That night, after you went to bed, I started moving furniture in order to fit this tree into an appropriate space. I spent an hour piecing the thing together and I’m a little ashamed to admit that after a lot of bickering between your Daddy and me the tree was dismantled and packed away in the box…. It was just a little too big so I’ll sort a different one out soon, I promise x

On the 14th we went to a Christmas Party at the baby sensory unit at the Milky Way. We went with Mila, Grayson, Roo and Hobie and we sang lots of songs had lots of sensory play, saw a puppet show and met Santa Claus for the very first time. Afterwards we stayed and had a play in the soft play area which was FAB for you little ones and I can see us making a regular pilgrimage up there.


On the 18th we had a Christmas Party at the Children’s Centre ‘Little Explorers’ where we did some prints of your hands and feet to make it look like a reindeer and Santa’s sleigh, as usual this didn’t go down well. Later on in the day we had to take you for your jabs, you poor little sausage…. They hurt and we cried, that’s all I’m going to say.

Unfortunately we’ve all been struck down with a really nasty cold this month, you managed to shake yours off before we did thankfully but I question whether you’d been suffering with it along time before your symptoms started.

On the 12th December your right upper lateral incisor finally popped through.

A month of firsts.
The first, and most important, was your very first birthday.
On the 7th you went to your first birthday party (of some one else’s), Tommy, at Stratton.
On the 8th-12th we went on own very first holiday together to Centre Parcs, Longleat. This lead to many firsts…
The 8th saw many firsts:
Your first Burger King where I offered you a bite of my Beanburger, figuring a taste wouldn’t hurt… you point blank refused it, which is a first in itself, you even spat out the bread. Good boy!


Your first time in a bike trailer being cycled around your first time in a forest.
Your first time sleeping in your own room.
On the 11th you took your very first tentative, unsupported steps (two, to be exact).
On the 14th you met Santa for the first time.

You are definitely showing your independence and since turning one have developed quite a temper. This is usual apparent on taking something away from you, preventing you from doing something you’ve got your mind set on or simply putting you somewhere you don’t want to be… Namely your pram or car seat! So the art of distraction is fast being perfected by me for my sanity.

Standing: You are free standing a lot more now, we’ve learnt to just let you do it when you feel like it, forcing the issue wasn’t getting us anywhere.
Walking: you have mastered using your Tidlo walker without me having to slow it down and you’re off like the clappers with it now. My back is eternally grateful. You have now taken your first, tentative, unsupported steps… And I was in the toilet – due to the fact I didn’t see it I’m calling this an unconfirmed event. On the 22nd you took another two towards me so I can now confirm it.
Speech: We can now start hearing you string sounds together in some form of sentence but what you’re saying is still a mystery. Your most common sound is AH which you make when pointing at stuff so we think it’s a question, much like “What is that?”, or “Look at me!” You mimic sound patterns that we make like when we exclaim “Uh oh” when you knock something over and you, very cutely, repeat it back to us.
Recognition: For a while now you’ve recognised objects and when asked where they are you’ve gone over to them, namely us, your crocodile/penguin/lion. You have now developed a ‘point’ which is amazing and makes life so much easier, though we were laughing about how we are praising you for pointing now yet in a couple of years time we’ll be telling you not to because it’s rude. The book your Granny bought you last time they were down has a favourite page and you now always point out the banana and strawberry when asked. On the 23rd you started pointing to your nose when we asked you where your nose was, we thought this a fluke at first until we asked you where your mouth was and you pointed at that. We’re now working on other parts of your body.

What doesn’t entertain you. You love music, you love dancing and are perfecting your head banging and ‘twist’ quite nicely. You’re are totally besotted with your books still, especially ‘lift-the-flap’ ones, though these are fast losing the flaps.

This is (I fear writing this in case I curse myself) getting better. You now are settled by 1900 (at the very latest) and sleep until atleast 0530 with a maximum of 2 wake ups in between (unless poorly). On the 16th December you slept a solid 9.5 hrs straight which was amazing and seeing as I had an early night I got 7 hours too… A first!

22Ib 12oz. You have finally grown out of all your 6-9 months clothing but are predominantly still in 9-12 month ones.

You have certainly found your appetite and are constantly eating! When you’ve finished your 4 or 5 courses you then start on mine.
New Tastes: Spinach and Ricotta Ravioli; Breadsticks; HP Sauce; Ketchup; Veggie Moussaka; Aubergine; Omelette; Cauliflower Cheese; Pastry; Pumpkin Soup; Lentil, Vegetable & Chickpea Stew; Nectarine
We continue with our breastfeeding journey also.


Centre Parcs Winter Wonderland

We have not long come back from our very first family holiday where we spent 5 days (8th-12th December) at Centre Parcs Winter Wonderland, Longleat Forest with our 1 year old son, Noah.

It was truly magical. A friend told me it hurls you into Christmas head first and she was right! From the moment I saw the snow clad entrance signposts I was catapulted into all things Yuletide.

We had to queue a bit from the main road to get checked in but the queue moved quite swiftly until we got to the arrivals lodge where there are about 12 check in ‘windows’. Check-in was quick, friendly and hassle-free, no need to get out the car. We were greeted warmly by the arrivals host and gave our name and lodge number as we’d forgotten our reference number. She toddled off to check us in and returned with our keys and welcome pack, showed us in a map where we needed to go and sent on our way, the whole process took no longer than 10 minutes.

Luckily we arrived a few minutes before 1500hrs so didn’t have to wait to drive to our lodge. Due to the nature of Centre Parcs visitor vehicles are only allowed on site between 1500 and 2300 hrs on the day of arrival (Mondays and Fridays) and only up until 1000hrs on day of departure (Mondays and Fridays). Outside these times it’s only site vehicles and the land train allowed.

Getting to the lodge was a bit of a bun fight. People seem to forget how to drive in there so be careful, cars all over the roads and drivers too concerned with looking at signs to lodges than the road, it was a bit hair raising. We found our lodge fairly easily, we had chosen Woodland Lodge 416 in the Pine Area on booking as it was on the outskirts of the park and in an area fairly close to the main arenas. I would highly recommend these peripheral lodges as we seemed to have more privacy when it came to windows… The main living area windows just looked out onto forest and in a lot of the inner lodges you could see right into the kitchen/living areas from the roads.

View from lounge window

The Lodge
We pre-booked the Woodland Lodge 416 in the Pine Area and were suitably impressed.


On arrival we were amazed how big the lodge was. You entered the lodge into a hallway which had a separate toilet and a huge storage room which housed a vacuum cleaner and other cleaning implements, boot rack and a proper drop-side cot. We chose to use the travel cot we brought with us but the instructions on the one provided were easy to follow and it looked spotlessly clean. This was a great room to put the pram in too.
This hallway lead onto the main living area with the kitchen (on the right) and dining area (on the left) at the front of the property and the living area at the back with sliding doors opening onto a patio with chairs and a brick built barbecue area. We didn’t use the barbecue (for obvious reasons) but there were instructions stating to only use the barbecues supplied at the Parc Market. All that could be seen from this patio were pine trees and a small window into next door’s living room. This main area had wooden flooring with a rug in the lounge area.
There was a big chalkboard in the kitchen/diner area with a nice welcome message from housekeeping plus a bowl of chalks which Noah enjoyed (probably less than we did though).


The kitchen was well equipped with four ring gas hob, gas oven, microwave, dishwasher and plenty of cupboards. 4 dishwasher tablets were provided as was a spare bin bag, a few tea bags, coffee sachets, sugar and UHT milk.
The bin has two compartments and a message asking to recycle. The recycling and general waste bins are located on the road outside the lodges, ours was right outside our lodge which was handy.
The bedrooms were either end of the lodge. The twin room located off the dining area and the main double and bathroom off the kitchen. Both rooms were carpeted and had hair driers as standard at a small vanity area. The bed linen was of good quality and despite the fact there were only two adults all beds were made up and towels provided for four.


The lodge had gas central heating that was controlled by a thermostat in the main living room. We thought it was on a timer initially until we read the lodge’s ‘instruction’ manual and realised that by upping the temp on the thermostat the heating would kick in, I think it’s set fairly low. There is also an open fire which can only be used with fire logs again bought at the Parc Market. We pre-ordered a pack of three which were there on our arrival and just happened to have a free one so had enough for the week.
The lodge was spotlessly clean and in good working order, no real signs of wear. If I was to find fault I’d say the cushions on the lounge could do with being removed and the sofa hoovered, also underneath the sofa… I only discovered this whilst checking for any toys Noah may have posted somewhere.
The highchair was really good too, though I did have to put a cushion behind Noah so he didn’t slip and slide everywhere but this was no issue.

Bike Hire
We had hired two bikes, a trailer for Noah and helmets prior to arrival and when we parked the car we went to the cycle hire on the way back to our lodge. As we’d pre-booked we headed straight to the front where we were quickly assigned bikes and helmets. Criticisms to be made were that we weren’t given any instructions on how the bike worked and pretty much sent on our merry way with no information or safety talk. Helmets didn’t fit neither my partner nor Noah (too small and too big respectively). It wasn’t until we got back to the lodge we realised we had no bike locks, something we had read were provided. We popped back the next day and told to help ourselves from a big bin at the collection point. It would have been nice if the guy had told us this on collection, but no real harm done.
A nice additional service they could provide would be to deliver (and collect) your bikes to your lodge for you, with a baby it was a bit of a mission and we would have gladly paid a little extra for such a service.


The Subtropical Pool
Wow… Just wow! What an arena!
Changing areas were spotlessly clean providing individual male and female cubicles. Separate male and female communal changing and family changing cubicles (with pull down changing unit and nappy bin) which all had two doors, one in and one leading to pool. Lockers were huge and plentiful. Take £1 coin for these. There were two giant body driers (like at Alton Towers) which were a novelty. Showers plentiful and powerful and leading into pool through a foot trough.
The pool area itself is really impressive, lots of plant/tree coverage giving it a jungle feel and this main pool has a wave machine, Tarzan would call out five minutes prior to activation. Off the main pool there was a little swim through ginnel which lead to a whirlpool area which Noah loved, this opened into the flume landing pools too.
Next to the main pool is a toddler and separate baby pool area with mini slides and warmer waters… Only criticism is the areas were largely taken up by lounging parents watching their older children meaning us with teeny tinies couldn’t get in until they vacated the area.
Taking a little jaunt upstairs you will discover a café, cabanas which you can hire, flume access and the entrance to the outdoor pool which had a ice plunge pool and entrance to the rapid ‘ride’. This area was truly magical amd I can imagine in the evening even more so. In true Winter Wonderland style it was highly, but tastefully decorated and there’s something decadent about being in the cold outside but in warm steaming waters.


All the flooring was cleverly cut stone meaning it was totally non-slip. Considering there were a lot of people there the pool never felt crowded and we took Noah into all areas (bar the rapids and slides, of course) in an inflatable seat with no real difficulties.

Also, point for parents, photos are not prohibited in the pool area… Something we missed out on as assumed it would be banned as is the case in so many public swimming areas.

The Parc
The resort is beautifully kept with plenty of staff keeping everything in tip top condition. Included in the price of the holiday are Adventure Playgrounds, Children’s Soft Play Area, Subtropical Pool, Cycle Paths and the Beach (yes, there’s a beach). There are dozens of bookable activities from indoor and bar sports to outdoor and water sports and activities. My only criticism is that there isn’t anything for the really tiny ones to do, everything seems to be geared to the 3 years and up.


We spent a lot of time walking (for N’s naps) and cycling around the Parc. The cycle paths are very well maintained and where there is a steep road for vehicles there is always a wooden cycle way which either goes into the forest, as the road drops away into a dip, maintaining a flat path or where a hill does need to be climbed they are sloped nicely, obviously at a gradient acceptable for wheelchair users, even I managed to cycle up from the Lake to main area without breaking a sweat.


There is a land train that runs around the Parc every 20mins to half an hour which is quite sweet, not that we needed to use it. Apparently you can’t take a buggy on board so be wary of this. One day they did have an issue with one where it leaked diesel and obviously hadn’t been discovered until it had driven around the Parc a few times meaning everywhere reeked of diesel and the roads (having just rained) were a tad treacherous under foot/wheel as no one did a clean up operation on it. A little annoying as everything we wore seemed to smell after cycling.

There are a vast array of restaurants to eat at. We only ate out twice and did this at Hawtons as it was close to the pool, open and friendly (despite the bottom of my water glass falling out soaking me in ice cold water). The vegetarian food there was lovely and fairly reasonable.

The Parc Market
In reviews this got quite a lot of negative comments due to price. We didn’t find it that horrific to be fair, living in a seaside town we have local shops that charge more than they do so I think a little unfair to criticise. You can pick pretty much everything you need up here though if you’re in a rush and there’s a queue, don’t expect it to move quickly.

Winter Wonderland
This is set up in the Market Square and is truly magical. There are lights in nearly every tree, snow, real reindeer aswell as 4 singing reindeer, Glühwein, Santa’s Workshop where you get to meet Santa himself and lots more. Noah was totally mesmerised despite being able to really get involved with it all.


All in all we were blown away by the whole experience and intend to book again for next year. It really does throw you head first into Christmas.

Ozeri 4x3motion Digital Pocket 3D Pedometer with Tri-Axis Technology – A Review

I was recently given the opportunity to review the 4×3 motion Digital Pedometer by Ozeri. Seeing as I seem to walk forEVER to get my LO asleep I was interested to see how far I’d walked and, more importantly, how many calories I was burning.

I haven’t had a pedometer since they were first put on the market. In those days you had to wear the device on your hip and it would notch any movement made on and count it as a step therefore giving you a less than accurate result on the whole and who didn’t shake the hell out of them to notch up more a few more miles?

I was intrigued by the claims that this pedometer gave and looked forward to testing it out.

What they say:

The world’s most advanced 3D pedometer. Unlike other pedometers that do not work accurately unless placed vertically, the 4x3motion Digital Pedometer utilizes the latest generation in Tri-Axis technology to provide superior accuracy in any position, whether up, down, flat, on its side, or at any angle. Moreover, the 4x3motion Digital Pedometer utilizes a Digital 3D Acceleration Sensor which is far more accurate than mechanical sensors used in other pedometers.

Compact, sleek and ultra slim, the 4x3motion Digital Pedometer fits is any pocket and is the ultimate personal trainer. Used by professional 100 mile ultra runners such as Evan Kimber, the 4x3motion Digital Pedometer records your steps, distance, average speed, calories burned, and time spent exercising, and displays your data on a new bright LCD with a night view backlight. The 4x3motion Digital Pedometer filters out vibrations and only begins counting after it detects a sequence of continuous steps for greater accuracy. The 4x3motion Digital Pedometer ships with a Lithium battery, a bonus strap and instruction manual. Your satisfaction is 100% guaranteed. (taken from their Amazon description)

My opinion:

On receiving the product it was neatly packaged, not over packaged at all with a simple plastic, moulded case that wasn’t too big for the item, a mini screwdriver to use on the battery compartment, a lanyard and a small paper instruction leaflet.

The product itself is really natty. I was given the black one which was sleek and very lightweight. It came with a black lanyard which could be fitted to enable you to wear it round your neck, this however wouldn’t thread onto my pedometer as the outer fabric on the leash just kept coming away exposing the inner core making it impossible to thread so I just put it in my pocket.

It has a really neat interface with only four buttons and it only took a couple of minutes to set up following the simple and easy to follow instructions and you can choose between metric or imperial when it comes to your data. The only thing I would say is that you have to input your stride length. I had to google this as I had no idea how to do this. Basically you put a mark on the floor and put the heel of one foot onto it then make a regular stride, then mark where your toe is on your front foot then simply measure the distance between and this is your ‘Step’. This needs to be fairly accurate so the device can calculate how far you’ve walked.

It also has a 7 day storage function so you can track your week’s activity.

I did find that on first using the pedometer it didn’t count any steps but then rushed through ten steps in one, this is normal apparently because it needs to detect a sequence of continuous steps and all in all, when I counted the device was pretty darn accurate.

I ran it alongside a GPS Walking app on my iPhone to check accuracy and the two were pretty close in distances though I appreciate my stride isn’t exactly the same length at all times. The time didn’t falter but the calories varied hugely, the pedometer giving the lower reading and this is the one I took on board, the app calories burnt were hugely exaggerated, in my opinion though I wish it was true!!

One really annoying thing about the device (in addition to the leash threading debacle) was that whenever I sat down with the pedometer in my back pocket, it reset itself, therefore losing all the data up to that point and having to go through the whole set up process again. It’s a shame I couldn’t get to use it on it’s lanyard to see how accurate it was in that position.

Would I buy it? If I was in the market for a pedometer I’d definitely trust this one, it’s accurate and good value for money with Amazon reducing the £39.99 RRP down to £15.95 (at the time of this review going to press). On the whole a good bit of kit and better to use than running your battery down on your smart phone by using an app.

Oh, and yes, you can still shake it to clock up the steps should you wish to do so, you just have to do it in a more rhythmic manner.

**This product was gifted to me for the purpose of this review.

The Birthday

Your special day started brilliantly after a perfect (for you) night’s sleep, some mummy and daddy time in bed with lots of play and cuddles and then a birthday breakfast followed by some card and present opening.


I had spent a bit of time decorating the lounge for your special day but the balloons I bought in town didn’t last long. However, they lasted long enough for your birthday breakfast (blueberry porridge, as usual) and the look on your face when you first saw them was priceless, which more than made up for my disappointment in their droopiness half an hour later (I won’t use Box of Secrets again).

We spent the morning as a family, opening cards and presents and getting ready for your party.


We had planned your birthday party to run from 12 until 3(ish). Firstly, apologies for not throwing you a massive party my darling. Due to lack of space and the fact that you are still so tiny we decided a play date party would be the best all round. We would have loved to have invited every one of the babies that mean something to you, and us, but we just don’t have the room this year.

Despite numbers dwindling due to hand, foot and mouth, colds and prior commitments your very first birthday party went pretty well. In actual fact it was probably a blessing as space was limited with just the four of you and it all becomes a little overwhelming for you all.

The first guest to arrive was Coral and the two of you had some fun with some gloop that I whipped up before everyone else arrived. After this Samuel arrived, shortly followed by Mila. We had the paper, crayons, blackboard and chalks out along with all your new (and old) toys.


It’s pretty safe to say that you all enjoyed yourselves playing with each other (and on your own 😉 and all enjoyed the food very much. Daddy, who’s never really seen you interacting with others, was amazed how everything just stopped when you all got your food and watched as you all sat on the floor with it. There weren’t even any tears!!!


The rest of the afternoon was spent opening the rest of your presents and enjoying some family time.

It was a perfect day, finished off with a nice bit of cake…


The Guests
(Also present were the mummies, your Daddy and myself)

The Food
Cheese Sandwiches
Marmite Sandwiches
Pizza Toast
Organix Sweetcorn Rings
Organix Carrot Sticks
For the mummies:
Four Bean Chilli with Nachos and dips
(Lots of) Prosecco
Chocolate and Blueberry Muffins

The Cake
After much investigation I ended up adapting an American recipe and made you a sugarless Banana and Blueberry Cake with cream cheese frosting decorated with fresh strawberries and raspberries. I have to say, it was a bit of a hit and, considering it was sugar free, tasted really quite nice.


The Party Bags
Ella’s Kitchen Treats

The Gifts
In no particular order…

That’s Not My Dinosaur Book
FisherPrice Telephone
Colin The Cloud Book
Disney Christmas CD
From: Uncle Dan & Auntie Sam, Ella and Tommy

Activity Tents and Tunnel
Wooden Shape Sorter
From: Uncle Simon and Auntie Jacqueline

Scrap Book
Felt Tips
Nights Before Christmas Story Book
Click Clack Car Track
Silver Money Box
From: Mummy and Daddy

Cuddly Doggy
From: Gemma, Ryan and Evan

London Bus T Shirt
Spot Goes to the Farm Book
Eric Carle My Very First Book of Colours
Eric Carle Touch and Feel Book
From: Auntie

Photo Frame
From: Auntie Caroline, Simon, Thomas and Grace

Lion Bead Frame
Skittle Set
From: Granny and Grandad

Santa’s Plate
Elf Hat
From: Katie C.

‘Noah’ Tree Ornament
From: Auntie Katie F.

Wooden Walker
From: Auntie Ann and Uncle Brian

From: Grandpa and Andrea

From: Great Nanna

Stacking Blocks
From: Coral

Radio Flyer Tryke
From: Grayson, Mila, Samuel, Roo and Corey

Even the cat got into the spirit of things…



If you know me you’ll know that we have decided to raise Noah (until he asks otherwise) to not have chocolate, added sugar, sweets or meat. My reasons for this are shared by my partner and remain our own. We feel that he will have most, if not all, of the above for the majority of his life and until he decides otherwise I feel there is no necessity for him to have them now.

I’m not, by doing this, in anyway criticising any parent who has/is giving their child chocolates in anyway shape nor form (just thought I’d get that in there before I get lynched).

So with all the traditional chocolate filled advent calendars filling the shelves, advent in this house consists of a wooden Advent Calender drawer unit which I’ve written little ‘promises’ in (activities for the day etc) although I’m now having to send this back as it’s broken (gah) and a special book I bought Noah for his first birthday.

Reading in my family has always been of utmost importance and as a child we didn’t have a television for a few years so read instead, often taking the time to discuss what we were reading as a family at the dinner table. Books are still a huge passion of mine now and I hope Noah shares this amazing world that only books can open.

I have been reading bedtime stories to Noah since he was 3 months old and I am now reading him one of these stories a night in the lead up to Christmas. I still recall stories that my mother read to me at Christmastime and whenever I come across them they still give me that tingly, excited feeling that Christmas gives to every child and remember those dark nights curled up with my mum on my bed being lulled to sleep by her melodic voice.

‘The Nights Before Christmas’ contains 24 classic stories illustrated by Tony Ross, probably best known for illustrating the Horrid Henry series of books. I spotted this in our local bookshop when the owner was unpacking them and I immediately fell in love with the whole idea of it. It contains 24 Christmas related stories and in buying this book I bought our first family Christmas tradition and I look forward to reading these stories in the run up to Christmas for many, many years to come. I hope Noah recalls such happy memories as I do when I think back to my own childhood.

The stories chosen are classic Christmas stories and poems written by authors including; Clement Clarke Moore, Hans Christian Anderson, Brothers Grimm, Charles Dickens, Oscar Wilde, Louisa May Alcott and many more.

We are now on Day 15 and although Noah hasn’t a clue what I’m reading him I’m starting to really get into the spirit of Christmas.


Happy advent everyone, enjoy the treats you have chosen this year.

Happy Birthday

A year has passed since you came into this [my] world and placed into my arms.

A year has passed since I first looked into your beautiful, peaceful and innocent face.

A year has passed since my world became complete.

A year has passed and I can’t quite believe it’s been that long.

From the moment I heard your first cry you’ve brought me such joy, such pride, such love. A love so pure, so solid, so unshakeable. A love I never knew existed before I met you.

Every day I thank the universe for you and every day I worry about you, whether it be your health, if you’re poorly, or your happiness, if you’re grumpy.

You are such a happy little boy, you’ve never been a crier unless there is something that’s paining you. You’re so inquisitive and so headstrong. You are at your happiest when exploring the world around you, even if that is harmful and I’m pulling you away kicking and screaming because it’s likely to hurt.

You’ve shown empathy from quite an early age knowing when I’m down and stopping what you’re doing to come and sit on my lap or just be close to me with a tiny hand resting on my leg. You have cuddled us for a while now but you have recently started kissing and with each gentle (slobbery) kiss my heart melts that little bit more.

From the moment I saw those two blue lines I’ve worried about you. My pregnancy seemed to go on forever and we counted down to your arrival week by week, those weeks seeming like months. Broaching the 24 week mark brought a slight relief knowing that should something go awry you would atleast have a chance. As it happened you came along just 3 days early with no drama and relative ease. Now a new worry has taken over.

I am still in disbelief that I should be given someone so precious and so perfect. Every day seems too good to be true. Every day I fret I’m doing the right thing by you. Every day you continue to amaze and fulfil me.

I love you Noah Ace, more than I ever thought possible.

Happy Birthday.

22nd November 2014